Excerpts of private sketch book/diary of 2024 regarding queer identity, early transition and self empowerment. After moving to the south east looking for employment to pay for gender care I was dropped from the job I moved down for and was left not able to pursue private gender care and was faced with waiting times for initial assessment of years, so I started trying to work on my mental health and self esteem through journalling, Athlough intented to be mostly writing it quickly became visual also.